We say it's never too late to change things .... I'm so tired of swimming against the current ... I just wanna close my eyes and wake up in a different place with different people, different vision of the world ... the same vision I had when I was a child.

Sometimes, we just lose ourselves, like if everything we have worked for was just pointless ... and we have to review everything and "calibrate" our vision of the world on what is "possible to achieve", even if we have to limit it ... and be like those who can't see further than the tip of their nose.

I am tired.

too much ambition, kills ambition .... dream number one : crushed.

Hey everyone ... Happy new year 2013 !

One of the rare moments I can write ....

I really don't have the strength to review all what I have been through this year but it is more than necessary .... to face the new year ..... Maybe I shall do it tonight.
2012 is gone, for real, a new year is coming ... so why can't I stop looking back ? and stop regretting every single thing I didn't do, every single choice I might have done wrong .... That's like the only thing I'm good at, regrets !

I regret not having the courage to stand up for myself and be who I really am.
I regret not having the courage to do what I really want to do,
I regret not having the courage to say what I really think,
I regret wasting too much time by thinking about how things could be better,  and how life would be if things were just different by themselves.

Wasting time, is the thing I regret the most ....

All these things sound pathetic to me, compared to what I consider really important in my life. But isn't this the biggest mistake ever ? to think that some problems are pathetic and pointless, and that I better ignore them to focus on the important things ... did I forget that I was human ?

I mean, at some point I need to say STOP ! things are fu**ing wrong ! I WILL CHANGE THEM ! No matter how hard I should work, I will make things the way they should be !

For 2013 :
STAND UP for yourself  'cause no one is going to stand up for you !
DO whatever you want to do, no matter what people think of you !
LOVE yourself for who you are, and WORK hard to be who you really are !

The most important : READ MORE books ! and be happy because you are alive and able of breathing !!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FRIENDS OF DEVIANT ART !!! I LOVE YOU ALL